Religion, for me, hasn’t always been a big deal.
Having been raised Catholic; I have done most of the whole nine yards – Baptism, Communion and Confirmation. I suppose the last act would be marriage. Despite having done all these things, I still don’t find myself to be at all religious.
I always feel uncomfortable around the topic of religion because people always expect you know exactly what you identify with. Am I Catholic? Am I atheist? Am I agnostic? I don’t particularly like labels, so when someone asks me I always skirt around the subject, somehow.
For me, I honestly don’t know what I believe in. I went for coffee with a friend yesterday and we ended up talking about how we were brought up in Catholic households but wouldn’t call ourselves Catholic. She said that if she did have to put me in a category, it would be agnostic.
From what I have researched via Google, this is the explanation of agnosticism that I can understand: “In the most general use of the term, agnosticism is the view that we do not know whether there is a God or not.” [1. Hepburn, Ronald W. (2005) (1967). “Agnosticism”. In Donald M. Borchert. The Encyclopedia of Philosophy. Vol. 1 (2nd ed.). MacMillan Reference USA (Gale). p. 92. ISBN 0-02-865780-2. (page 56 in 1967 edition)]
I believe in the Big Bang but at the same time I do believe that there is some sort of deity. That is not to say that I believe it is ‘God’, per say, but I don’t think that everything just appeared out of nowhere.
It’s a bit confusing trying to figure out what it is I believe in exactly, and I’ve never actually written or spoken about it before yesterday when I was chatting with my friend. It’s also kind of scary to even think about talking to it with my mum because she is highly religious and quite strict about it, as well.
She hasn’t bothered me about not going to church in ages, but I can tell it does bother her a little bit. The reason I don’t want to go to church is that 1. I find it boring. 2. I don’t believe in everything the Bible teaches. 3. I don’t want to be a hypocrite. I’ve done a lot of things that are not at all in line with the teachings of the Church, and I don’t want to go to church and have to listen to a priest preach about the things that you shouldn’t do.
I guess questioning what you believe in is something that happens as you grow older, especially now in this society. I’m not sure where this post came from, either, but here you go!